Thursday, February 25, 2010


Dear Andy,

I have to change. so demoralizing. Why am i such a failure. Why can't i perservere. Where's my stamina for things? Why do i always give up at the 11th hour... I hate myself so much sometimes.

tre arty
@ 3:12 AM|


Wednesday, February 24, 2010


Dear Andy,

What kind of power do you hold? That can capture people's hearts with your smile. That makes people laugh at the things you say... That makes others fall helplessly in love with you?

I wanna know.
So that... I can be like that some day.

tre arty
@ 8:54 PM|


Sunday, February 21, 2010


Dear Andy,

Cause i am living in a material world and i am a material girl.

YELLOOO!!! I'm materialistic. there i admit it. doesn't make me get more material things like my to die for Iphone though:/ when will i be able to get it with arise and build coming up! Praying for it. For works of miracles to be done to my life:] So full of hope today. Nothing's gonna change my love for you. Every obstacle just makes me draw nearer to you and makes me rely on you more. Because a perfect God, can never fail you. He'll always be there for you. It's if you choose to open your eyes to see:]

tre arty
@ 11:23 AM|





Dear Andy,

I had many new revelations these 2 days. Indeed, fellowship with people of God brings forth a bigger spiritual atmosphere. And with God, all things are possible!:]

Served choir for the first time today.. I didn't intend to go for service 2. however, before service 1 started they asked around if anyone would like to serve for service 2 as they were lacking people. I heard God speaking to me, telling me to go. What can i say? It was no regrets. Within this whole day i saw pastor kong upclose in Service 1. He arrived before service even started and he was standing behind the band. Brother Poh walked past me! He's shorter than i expected o.o Annabelle talked to the newcomers for service 2's evaluation and pastor kong said hi to us when he rushed over from service 1:] Like some case of being major starstruck to me o.o hahaha...

God has really comforted me recently. I never saw this issue as a bother, more of something that i couldn't get out of my head. But he's answered my few uncertainties with just one verse. all along, it had been stuck on my whiteboard. a tiny post-it i had long forgotten about. Yet it spoke so clearly to me suddenly.
" And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."- Galatians 6:9

that's all. i need to sleep. Love God. For his love rescued me. Today, You made me fall deeply in love with you again. And made me realise, it's never " When all else fails, i've got you.", it's " all else fails without you."

tre arty
@ 12:13 AM|


Wednesday, February 17, 2010


Dear Andy,

GOTTA LET IT OUT. FUCKKKKK MARKETING SIAAAA. FUCK ITTT LUHHH!!!

tre arty
@ 6:32 PM|





Dear Andy,

i'm constantly wondering how you're spending your holidays, what you're doing, who you're doing whatever you're doing with. when i see you i act like i didn't, and you act like you didn't to, and that's how we live our lives. but, what if it's a few years later when you go off? we'll never get to see each other again! i wish i talked to you more. although i know, we would never become the best of friends, but at least if i tried a little harder, we'd be hi-bye worthy friends,no?

i often ponder if that's how he feels too. or any of the other aquintances for that matter. do they wonder the same thing? hmmm...

tre arty
@ 4:46 PM|


Wednesday, February 10, 2010


Dear Andy,

Baby if they asked me
I would say I don't even know ur name
And if they asked me
Does it change?
No, it don't change a thing
Cuz there's something about the way you'll love me
There's just something about the way you'll know me
That I cant explain enough
There's just something about our
future love

You got that right. there's just something about our future love:] This song's like a melody stuck in my head man.. Thank you God. For letting me on so many revelations recently.

tre arty
@ 11:16 PM|


Tuesday, February 9, 2010


Dear Andy,

Today felt like the most fortunate day i've had in the longest time! I seriously felt so worried for my excel test just now. Especially since i was super clueless! It wasn't as bad as i expected it to be afterall! After that we got a treat from Mrs Nair for like, Macdonalds! After that went to ang mo kio to get the bag i really wanted along with Love and Mefline. I spent the whole weekend like i was in love, thinking about my bag. NOT KIDDING o.o haha.. i'm turning way to materialistic. Went far east after. bought some bangles. Followed by Summerset 313. GOSH. new look has heels my size! in limited designs but those that they had in, BEAUTIES. i tried on this black pair. It looked so great i'm actually thinking of saving up for them now. Yeap..walked around 313 and got tired. so we sat down at cold rock for ice cream.

I LOVE EATING SOUR AND FRUITY ICE CREAMS. IT MAKES YOU FEEEEEL GREAT:] seriously. better than chocolate. chocolate's just sinful and, well, FULL.hahaha..

Who says that best friends/good friends can't fall in love? Such a possibility, should never be ruled out. Just by observing my limited friend's even more limited relationships, i can speak love theories like a love guru. And i don't even have experience. haha.. i love the fact that i'm so full of rubbish. Embracing it while i can. Cause if i'm old and speaking like that, ultimate turn off already...

tre arty
@ 11:43 PM|


Sunday, February 7, 2010


Dear Andy,

It's exactly a week to Valentine's Day.I'm upset i didn't have time to get everyone something...

tre arty
@ 5:20 PM|





Dear Andy,

I don't know how to do excel...will i ever use such complicated functions in the future? i hope not...if not i think my head will explode. I can't decide if i should cut bangs. I've been craving like mad to get the bag and the cotton on clothes.How you tell meee..howwww!!! UGH. I feel like as if it's time to freeze up my atm card in the freezer. I've been craving to spend like siao. That's it. Later go grand's house got Cotton on and Diva!!! I have a feeling i'll go buy gold ling ling long long and that skirt and top i've wanted. I'm so screwed!!!>.< OH MAN. IS THIS THE DEVIL PLANTING EVIL THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD? BECAUSE I FEEL EVIL. ARGH.

tre arty
@ 12:35 PM|


Friday, February 5, 2010


Dear Andy,

I'm going to throw my laptop away i swear. Lock it up or something. I can't believe i procrastinated for 2 days in a row and is still not motivated to study! What is wrong with me!!

tre arty
@ 1:07 AM|


Thursday, February 4, 2010


Dear Andy,

Mel called me today:] i'm getting ACJC shirt.muahahaha.. i don't know why i want to get it o.o i'll probably be wearing it, what? at home?

I hate the fact that i'm 17 and missed the chance of applying for resorts world.

tre arty
@ 11:32 PM|


Wednesday, February 3, 2010


Dear Andy,

It's the third of january. I haven't started studying and its 2 weeks to exams! Guess what o.o i went shopping today. I hate myself sometimes..I hate my friends more for not going new year shopping earlier. Haha..Kidding. love you guys:]

Anyways, went to cotton on ( i felt like buying everything there o.o seriously.)and then AMK hub. 2 favourite shops my clique and i like to go : Code Red ( bags and shoes) and Song & Song. Yeap.We are officially hard-core fans. Most of us have more than 2 items from these 2 shops. Aweeesome. hahaha.. Man. I'm still seriously upset. I went to Code red and could only fit into their size 43 flats. meaning my feet could have grown larger. cause i'm usually a size 41. And NOOO HEEL size!! Just flats. Dang it. No, Song & Song is the most ridiculous place to shop. For some reason, i feel like there's a weird smell in that shop. Most tops are basics there. And you really have to DIGGG for good ones. But CHEAP. $3-#10. Freaking cheap.

Did i mention that i was so hungry i was bent to wait for dinner before studying? But what'd i eat? TOAST BREAD. Thanks a lot mum. thanks a lot sis.And i'm like now this unhappy teen who ate dinner at 10 plus PM, didn't cut and dye her hair with a mum and a sis who went to do their hair in a salon. PITY ME:[ Ok luhh...dying my hair chestnut brown tomorrow. I'm so sure there wouldn't be a difference cause i'm using Liese.That foam one...

Ugh. today marks the 3-day quota for using facebook. no more facebook for the week! oh wells...

tre arty
@ 10:05 PM|


Monday, February 1, 2010


Dear Andy,

Why am i awake at 4am!>.< no, i'm not entertaining these thoughts. go away. I hate the fact that we're friends but you bring me down so easily. I hate the fact that i feel like i'm constantly lost in this maze where i can't seem to find the answer when it comes to you. I hate the fact that you always complain but never share the joy. i hate the fact that i know you're unhappy when you talk to me, but know you're happy because you're missing in action. Yeah. that's how i'm feeling. i wish i could tell you this straight in your face. but i know you enough to know that no, you're not going to listen. and you're not going to change. telling you this will just mark the end of our friendship. so, should i? maybe if it did end, it'll benefit both parties..

i don't think i'll be feeling so insecure if you didn't pour that out. Yeah. sometimes when you say some general comments about how you treat your friends TO your friends, it's called too much info.

friend trouble is worst than boy trouble.come to think of it, i haven't got boy trouble yet. oh man.. i'm sure it can't get worst than this.sigh* hate it when i've got inner-conflict.

tre arty
@ 4:05 AM|