Tuesday, November 24, 2009


Dear Andy,

Clarissa cannot waittt waiittt waittt for click five's new album!!!! favourite band:]

tre arty
@ 10:58 PM|


Monday, November 23, 2009


Dear Andy,

Yesterday is a pretty PAISEH day.. Had an awesome awesome cellgroup meeting as usual and went home after that.. well, Jaden said he wanted to study so i was thinking,"i could go if he went to study at parkway!" since i got to go my grandma's house what.. then ok lor. So he said he wanted to eat carl's jr. When we reached there, i had no idea he meant the carl's jr at eat coast park!! I thought he meant the newly opened one at parkway o.o sigh* so i was like,"CANNOTTTT>.<>.<

At the end of the day,i got scolded on the way home. cause my mum said i so disrespectful or whatever? Like, not my day man. not my day. Cellgroup meeting was really very awesome though. hahahaha....

tre arty
@ 6:20 PM|


Saturday, November 21, 2009


Dear Andy,

He had rough hands, yet a smile that was really, lighting this whole town... or you could say, it lit my heart. Oh well.. haha. ok stop being gay clare. go do work.

tre arty
@ 11:59 PM|


Wednesday, November 18, 2009


Dear Andy,

When you're down and out, you feel lonely. Then a few concerned friends would knock on the door. Call you, text you. You take them as nuisances. Therefore you ignore them completely. After a while, you're really ALONE. because they're tired of knocking at your door. Tired of your REJECTION. Then you ask," Why? Why am i being outcasted? Why do they not call me to hang anymore?" Isn't the answer pretty obvious here? It's a torture during our down and out periods. But it's even more painful when our friends try to help and we push them away.
Isn't this so similar to us rejecting God when we're out? We ask, where is he? why is he no longer speaking to me? Why can't i hear him? Yet the answer's actually simple. How do you hear when you put on earplugs? How do you see blindfolded? The problem really lies with if we CHOSE to let him in.

Note to self: Sometimes i really need to re-examine my attitude. my behaviour. my approach on things.

Why are we so ready to blame others? Yet never ready to put the blame on ourselves? Yet He is ready to receive us with arms wide open everytime. That's what we call, unconditional love. That is also why, he is so perfect. CAN WE DO THE SAME? Can we love unconditionally? Let's put our love, to the test.

tre arty
@ 10:36 PM|





Dear Andy,

Clarissa should start working at some ulu retail shop. so ulu until nobody goes there. Therefore she can start to read up those books that she has so nicely wrapped up in their original covers.untouched.sigh*

tre arty
@ 10:10 PM|





Dear Andy,

I HATE MARKETING. It's so easy yet so hard. I hate the fact that i spent half of today thinking about you. i thought i got over this thing we never had. did i? well, now i will. cause i'll force myself to.

Ok. start thinking about marketing.

tre arty
@ 9:16 PM|


Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Dear Andy,

Have been super cheered up by rainbows recently.. This was from char's facebook. I want to make it. because it's a RAINBOWWWWW cakeee!!! LOVES♥!! Well, i've been telling many people about this beeeeeeeautiful cakeeee. They've given me mixed reactions really. Some say," Eh, come on lahh..doing a normal cake isn't even easy...." Some want to try, some question it's edibility. mostly, they question my baking skills. HAHAHA!! Well, I intended to make this for christmas and my mind's made up so... yeap. and yeah, many are curious what it'll taste like. I doubt everyone'll get to taste it. Therefore, i have decided to make cupcakeeees!! :D Rainbow cupcakes for my loved ones. IF I LOVE YOU, YOU MIGHT GET ONE!:D

Have i told you that i love you?

tre arty
@ 8:39 PM|


Sunday, November 15, 2009


Dear Andy,

At this very vulnerable moment, I feel like i'll marry anyone who sings me an acoustic song. I will just marry that person. Guy, Girl, Animal, alien, plant. whatever. Thank goodness it's morning, i'm at home, and i can't marry the people i'm listening to on youtube. phew. HAHAHA.

tre arty
@ 11:01 AM|


Saturday, November 14, 2009


Dear Andy,

Christianity is not a religion. It is a relationship.

tre arty
@ 10:58 PM|


Thursday, November 12, 2009


Dear Andy,

I am a follower. My brain would be spinning with ideas and in the dead of the silence....would let it be that way. Cause i lack that self-esteem. That confidence which lets me step up and say,"Hey! I think that..." That's what i got reminded of during tutorial today. The tutor was asking for the answer and i said it really softly. After a while my friend voiced out my answer and the tutor actually said," Very Good!" and i would have that little bit of satisfaction. Yet, today I felt different. Today I felt like as if the Holy Spirit literally took my shoulders and shook me violently,screaming,"WAKE UP!Do you not have enough faith? Do you not believe that I am with you every step of the way? Why is it that you fear then?" Exactly what am i fearing here?? Where is my courage?

One day i really need to step up and instead of following, lead. I hope that day comes soon.

tre arty
@ 6:27 PM|


Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Dear Andy,

Clare = FAT
Clare=FAT
Clare must therefore lose weight. Everybody must stop me from eating. MUSTTT!!!

I officially love studying in my study room. Even if the laptop was in front of me, i just didn't have the tendency to turn on the music. It was like as if my study room carried some special anointing. you think...? hmm.. hard to say eh?:]

I'm going to have water parade( is that what they call it...?) everyday macham i'm in NS so that i can clear all the toxins in my body and have clearer skin. I have a new target. I've been searching high and low for one then i saw one right in front of me. TAN M F!! That girl has baby skin, the tan i like( ok slightly different) and she's super duper skinny can!! Yeeah i'm going to get her full length picture and hang it on my wall! Ok that's too stalker-ish. kidding:D teehee...

tre arty
@ 9:08 PM|


Sunday, November 8, 2009


Dear Andy,

I really don't know what's going on. As to why people backslide, people more spiritually matured, i fail to understand now. What i know was today when we were singing the worship song i thought i heard her voice by the door.And i had that glimmer of hope that when i turned my head i would see her there singing, crying and just being touched by the presence of the holy spirit. But. It wasn't her. Believe. All i can do is believe that after much prayer God will let her heart be so open to God's word again. I miss her:[ I really do...

I haven't started on my project yet! I'd better start soon man.. seriously..

tre arty
@ 11:34 PM|


Sunday, November 1, 2009


Dear Andy,

Had an awesome prayer meeting at Pam's house today.. we prayed from 1pm-4pm. As i began to listen and absorb what Cate was saying, i realised how true it was that i tended to doubt. Not doubt the works of the Lord, more like, doubting my own capabilities. After pondering over this, i've come to this conclusion. If i was doubting myself, isn't it the same as doubting God? It's like we're works of God. And i'm doubting the work that God had uniquely created( ME LUH), isn't that doubting him? It's really a time for me to do some reflection. And i really want to just. Shut down. Just have time to listen to what He wants to say to me. I'm tired. And when you're tired, you tend to forget to open your ears. sigh*

So much has happened recently. Honestly, i feel like i'm groping around in the dark. Honour your father and your mother. In this case, HOW? I'm sick of all this contradiction.

ugh. ok.sleep later forget everything and hope they will stop bringing up. Cause if they do, i'm going to challenge what they're saying to them. I don't care if they're older anymore. It's time to realise how contradicting they are. They are so contradicting, i just hope my nephew and niece don't grow up confused. So little people THINK in this family. oh yeah. they do. just not the big picture. their thoughts revolve around themselves.

tre arty
@ 11:44 PM|