Sunday, November 1, 2009


Dear Andy,

Had an awesome prayer meeting at Pam's house today.. we prayed from 1pm-4pm. As i began to listen and absorb what Cate was saying, i realised how true it was that i tended to doubt. Not doubt the works of the Lord, more like, doubting my own capabilities. After pondering over this, i've come to this conclusion. If i was doubting myself, isn't it the same as doubting God? It's like we're works of God. And i'm doubting the work that God had uniquely created( ME LUH), isn't that doubting him? It's really a time for me to do some reflection. And i really want to just. Shut down. Just have time to listen to what He wants to say to me. I'm tired. And when you're tired, you tend to forget to open your ears. sigh*

So much has happened recently. Honestly, i feel like i'm groping around in the dark. Honour your father and your mother. In this case, HOW? I'm sick of all this contradiction.

ugh. ok.sleep later forget everything and hope they will stop bringing up. Cause if they do, i'm going to challenge what they're saying to them. I don't care if they're older anymore. It's time to realise how contradicting they are. They are so contradicting, i just hope my nephew and niece don't grow up confused. So little people THINK in this family. oh yeah. they do. just not the big picture. their thoughts revolve around themselves.

tre arty
@ 11:44 PM|