Sunday, May 3, 2009


Dear Andy,

These few days have just been ever so depressing.... today she did it again....whenever i hear her opening that window, i ask myself.. who's suppose to get the blame? because i always get that stupid talk from her boyfriend that just keeps going in circles and never comes to the point. Then you guys blame me for being rude..well, i'm sorry if i had to raise my voice!like, hello! i'm crying and trying to not choke on my tears and talk at the same go. and not like i didn't see this scene since i was 5. If i were to blame, it wouldn't make sense when it happened when i was 5 did it?
what was i getting blamed for then?! wetting my bed? pffffft.
So what if they were the adults? i feel like as if they need to grow up and think. at least make sure they think through what they're saying instead of go about beating round the bushes and still not giving me an answer.
I'm so tired... they need to figure out if they want to let me free or tie me up. i'm like a kite now.. getting tugged at, i'm landing hard on the ground here. How stressed can you get staying at home honestly? not my fault that all the construction's making the house dustier than ever yeah?! I just need to vent out my anger. Cause when you were scolding me just now, i was thinking in my head. Have i ever complained to you? Oh yeah. you don't listen... so i sort of gave up. You don't have to be a parent 24/7... sometimes i just need a friend.. I know i have to respect you.. but sometimes, i need a little respect too... And i feel like an animal. Cause you make it sound like as if i'm bound to end up like you... the truth is, you don't even see how blessed you are.. you're always seeing the bad side..

Yayy... birthday coming... i soooooo have the mood to celebrate-.-

Shit.. I can't even think positive thoughts now...

tre arty
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