Monday, May 25, 2009


Dear Andy,

RECENTLY I REALISED HOW GRATEFUL I SHOULD BE TO OH SO MANY PEOPLE. BECAUSE I'M SO SICK OF STUDYING MY BRAIN NEEDS TO REST( whichever side helps me absorb the knowledge..or whatever). I would like to list down a number of people i need to thank. and why i need to thank them. brace yourselves. it's a super long list.

Jaden: Thank you for inviting me to church. Thus letting me know this huge bunch of fun-loving spiritual believers[am i using this term correctly-.-] that have welcomed me and made me feel at ease in this new environment.
Ok la. you're also my online friend. So, there were the risks taken when meeting up with you[ in church, so alot safer?!]. yeah la. i told you before right? especially the luo zhi xiang thing.. i'm really grateful that i have you as a friend:]

God: Alycia gave me bible study the other day and made me realise that the first time you spoke to me was when i approached the front during altar call. I knew at that time that for some reason, my heart was already at the front, although my body was still at my seat. However, i didn't realise that you were speaking to me at that time, telling me to go up. I'm a little oblivious, but i'm sure there were many times when you spoke to me. I just didn't realise it. Thank you for giving me a cellgroup of people to fellowship with and a great bunch of friends in poly too:]

Nelson: Haha.. sometimes i feel super paiseh la. To a person i've hardly known for less than 2 months, you're constantly bombarded by my questions that are sometimes oh so random. And I always end up calling you when i reach church cause i don't even expect an answer from jaden's phone[ he's always MIA to me.haha!so just directly call you..]
Thank you for being my connect group leader. YOU ARE SUPER NAGGY. But i get annoyed for like 5 secs. Then I'll realise, you're really nagging at me for my own good. Sigh* although i forever tell you i won't be late and end up calling you half an hour before i'm suppose to reach and inform you that i WILL be late.. Sorry la.. sometimes i can tell that you're a little disappointed for me not keeping my promise. I will seriously make a HUGE effort to be early now. I promise. And keep in mind that story about Pastor Kong being late...

Alycia: Seriously had a great bible study session! I'm thankful to have you as my BS teacher:] I'm just super glad you made me realise that God actually spoke to me already!

Everyone else in my cg: Well, when i really feel blessed, being able to share the same cg with you guys. although i'm still not close to most of the people in the cg, it takes time right? I mean i've only been there 2 months. but we'll grow closer i guess...:] i haven't met everyone in the cg right-.- how big is my cg.. so far i named 27 people. and i have in mind.. around 5 that i have not met. plus the 3 that i saw on saturday but don't know their names.. whoohooo...haha.. very big cg indeed..

Poly Clique:Thanks for tolerating my nonsense. seriously. as you all know, i look smart, AM SO SMART TOO LUUHH.. haha. just so lazy i managed to end up being the only person failing second quiz.. but whatever. Greatful that you guys still hang around me after getting crap from me. I will try to know you guys better. We've got 3 years to become BFFs? GFFs? loll. i have never heard Good Friends Forever before.. But i hope i can be there for you guys. I want to be there when you're happy and when you're sad ok! Pour out your problems and i will listen. Because sometimes, that's all i can do.But if i could help in other ways, i will. Because i treasure the friendship i have made.:]

Kenneth Chong And Kenneth Lim: You have no idea how grateful i feel now. Especially after i managed to study finish micro econs. ok la. i still have 2 more points i haven't studied. but thank you so much for sending me songs. I just have to listen to songs when i study. Honestly, thank youuuuu!!!!

Zimmer: Sorry ah Zimmer. But sometimes i also feel super paiseh that i always disturb you when it came to academic related stuff like, what other ICAs do we have or whatever.. i think i over rely on you cause you're class rep. And i stalk you cause i'm a paparazzi and you're so cuteee.. i had to stalk youu.. hurhur. ok la.enough jokes. later JJ jealous. Cause JJ is still number one.[ ok. kidding for that tooo:)] But I really want to thank you sincerely. You're a really nice guy you know! Just super like to tease people-.-

Ultimately, Thank you for everyone who recently helped me in anyway. I feel like as if every action recently from my friends have affected me indirectly one way or another. And they're really helping me become a better person. I really want to do something nice for everyone before i leave for Sydney( haha! why do i blog like as if i'm migrating?!?!). I'll try.. if i have the time.. i'll do it:] If not, i'll do it once i come back.. yep.

Oddly i'm not thanking my Mg friends. Why? Cause they didn't impact me recently@_@ HAHA!! Kidding.. I love them very very much. And i think they probably know that already.If i had to thank them, I might as well write a dictionary. Because the truth is, i cannot compare my mg friends with my poly friends or even my cg. Because those mg people i'm still close to, I've known most of them since 8,9 or even 10 years ago. How is anyone going to beat that? Nooo way.. Friendships cannot be compared that way. that's what i've learned recently. There's also no such thing as forgetting it all. So i am going to create new memories with my cg and poly friends now:] As for my mg friends( ok. I'm not getting my point across. i don't know how to explain. so i kind of give up.So it's understandable if you have no idea what i'm talking about), stooopid people. when are we meeting up!!!>.< heeee:]

Ok. clear up time. I DO NOT like jingjie ok??It's all for fun.I cannot believe that cheryl told me that kenneth asked her if i really like jingjie. I got so thick-skinned or not?! Like him still openly declare for the whole world to know! hahahaha!! Really, just ask me directly mah.. all you had to do was add a "SERIOUSLY, " in front of the question and i will give you a serious answer:]I don't know JJ enough to like him:p if you say eyecandy maybe it's possible.Crush ah?! hahahahaha!! wait lor..wait longer... no offense la. I mean, he's a nice guy[i think]. i just don't know him well enough to like him/ he didn't do anything nice for me to like him?!

PS: If i CURRENTLY like a person, i won't tell anyone at all.. i mean at all as in, NOBODY. not until i fall crazily in love with him and go into infatuation mode and feel like as if my emotions would burst and i'll go mad then i'll tell someone. Ok la. I'll tell my whole poly clique lor. Probably. Even so, It isn't happening unless i lose weight. Because i don't have enough self esteem now. So i feel like as if i'm not good enough for anyone. not even if the guy i liked was balding. i'll still think i'm not good enough for him....

tre arty
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