Friday, May 15, 2009


Dear Andy,

I am currently watching youtube videos although i secretly promised myself that i'll study. I have too many loose screws in my head man. and i failed ICA2. I FREAKIN FAILED. only person to fail somemore.yayyy.. i just can't remember those terms luhh.. bring it on tutor! you can give me a html quiz next week if you want! at least it's easier to remember luhh.. after this module, i'm gonna start creating my own blogskin man. one that's MINE AND MINE ONLY.. MUAHAHA!!!

I'm watching jill sing on youtube and totally getting puzzled. how can a person change so much? for the fame? for the fortune? you betray your friends?! i don't see myself doing that. i'm not saying that i've never betrayed a friend. i don't do it on purpose... not to a person i've been best friends with for like, forever. i mean, there are always cases when you make mistakes.but this one, this is one such case where it's soooo on purpose.

I think i secretly want to be in a relationship. sometimes i wonder how it'll feel to have someone to hug when you're upset.. not a friend luhh.. like, someone you can hold and he's YOURS ONLY. wahhh.. haha!! clarissa is day dreaming.. oh well.. for some reason i've concluded that i scare guys off. so yeah. i'm gonna start looking around more when i lose enough weight to look myself in the mirror and go WOAH. you have changed! good job! then i'll look:] see la. when i don't watch enough dramas i'll feel like getting into a relationship. i think dramas give you numbing effect. cause the storyline is always better in real life. more romantic!

eeeks. some people are just sooo..soooo.... impatient!! they really need to get a grip. and use that thingy called a brain. cause you THINK FIRST. THEN ASK QUESTIONS. not question, question, question,question. but still don't think. ughh...[why am i giving a self-reminder!!!! hahah:)]

my mom doesn't want me to be in a relationship. i would like to see how she'll get me a boyfriend when i'm 30, slightly wrinkled, and very very very very....EXTREMELY out of shape. good luck mom. time to stock up money to spend on dating agencies. haha!! just kidding.. but i always imagined something like that happening to me. that shows how sad my life can get huhhh:[i can't get the love i want at home. neither do i seem to get it anywhere else...
OH WELL. there's God! God loves meeeee:] i think i just feel very loner now. and very in need of love.cause..i'm alone?! yeah. now i'm totally crapping luhh. but you should know that i'm totally typing whatever i'm thinking. ok. thing that sparked me to re-consider " self-made dating policy"--> apparently you lose 24 calories from kissing a minute long!! so you lose almost a 100 in 4 mins!! that's 15 mins on the threadmill-.- you see what i'm talking about??hmm.. maybe they're fat when they get together. then they always make out so in the end both also lose weight together!! haha.. ok enough crapping. it's time to go since it's raining:p

tre arty
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