Sunday, May 24, 2009


Dear Andy,

ajuna,suzzana,meee,jalini

Heh. this is uncomfortable. i hate taking pics of myself. anyways, see my hair? can tell the diff? it's suppose to be like that after i style it. butt.. i'm not rich enough to buy the spray.oh wells..:]

seriously, grace's hair..is cool..

val,meee,c.sou

I'm a little freaked out by this photo. do you realise that both our hands are busy?! so who pressed the button to take this photo huhh!! definitely not val! i was like talking to her la...

You might not know it, but i'm very happy. i really am. because..:] I realised something. i don't like feeling happy alone. When my friends feel happy, i tend to feel happier than them. It's like, i feel better sharing the happiness of others in a way. Example, when kas got her O levels results? i cried! haha.. stupid clare. cry for what.. no need to get so happy right? Then whenever i hear that who and who's in a relationship. I'll be so excited and happy for them. I wonder if i get hit twice as hard when my friends are upset too.. I know that a certain someone's upset. and knowing that she is, i'm feeling a little blue too. Is this suppose to be natural?Hmm... I never used to be like that.. This may be slightly confusing..

Yesterday had deliverance. eye opener.really.Shan't say much about it. I really need to start remembering ways i can get home from different parts of Singapore. or i might need to start carrying bus directories...

I'M IN LOVE I'M IN LOVE I'M IN LOVE I'M IN LOVE I'M IN LOVE I'M IN LOVE, ACCIDENTALLY!!! I'M GOING ULTIMATELY SONG-CRAZY. LIKE, I GOT SO MANY SONGS STUCK IN MY HEAD. A SONG POPS IN MY HEAD EVERY 5 SECS. SHEESHH...
ALL THE SMALL THINGS, TRUTH CARE,TRUTH BRINGS....

i love him.i love him not. i love him. i love him not. i love him. i love him not. i love him. i love him not. <---- i wrote that all over my speech draft/outline. i was listening to collide. i am being random. i think i have an imaginary crush. i'm serious. like, he's this shadowed figure thingy in my head. clarissa, you're going crazy from all the studying and listening to too many love songs. i cried yesterday watching the you belong with me mv again. now i think i'm spastic.haha:]

I'm beginning to doubt myself. because every other aspect of my life is changing. my friends, my environment.. i'm wondering. am i changing into a better person? or a worst? I've never had such a major change before. God, help me. Guide me in my road to self-discovery[of some sort.]. i will make it through this period. i know it.

tre arty
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